He wears the pants,

I was completely shocked the other day when my boyfriend said "I wear the pants in this relationship and I make the decisions". Wow, what was I supposed to say to that. The bible says for woman to submitt to her husband but it also states that a man should submitt to his wife. I know we aren't married yet, but I was kind of blown away by his blunt comment. Of course he is the man, and men are the superiors but I think I should have some say in things. See the thing is he is in this band called Harvard Bound and he has all these shows and sometimes he promises to come see me but something with the band comes up and he has to make it there. So I know some would say that I have to accept that but I think that I should come first before a band or at least taken into a little more consideration you know? It has left me very confused, I was taught to never keep things inside. Getting put aside all the time, hurts me, but he just wants me to sit and accept. Sometimes keeping a straight face for the ones you love can kill you completely insde but some how your outsides have to live when it really just wants to die with the rest of you. Relationships are hard, I have to admitt that. At the same time though, they can be a life's teaching all in one. I like when Proverbs 24:27 sais "Develop your business first before building your house". He claims he loves me, we plan a future together, so he should develop the business in our relationship before building his house with our future plans. How can I the business stay running when I don't have enough money ( apprectiation ) to get the house built. Other words how can our future become with out a little work in the beginning to stay strong so the house won't fall down.

My baby and myself! 

This is me, Toya! 

Well one thing I learned,

Always tell the truth. I was watching "Kingdom Of Heaven" and one of the knights on there was telling his son to always tell the truth even if it leads to your death. I know most people are thinking no way would I tell the truth if it meant getting killed. But I think it can be looked at differently. If you told the truth it could lead to your friend getting in trouble or your boyfriend/girlfriend. If you told the truth about skipping class you might get after school detention. The word death can mean loss of friendship, after school detention, or maybe even being grounded. I think it's a good idea to tell the truth because sometimes when you don't, it really can hurt someone and it's a lie you have to live with your whole life. A lie can be selfish, something you do for yourself to save yourself from that death. I like it when Jesus told all the people who believed in, "You are truly my disciples if you keep obeying my teachings. And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free". Telling a lie might not catch up with you right then but it will. See when you lie you put a cage overself, an eternity of guilt, but when telling the truth you are both strong and free. You're strong for being able to tell the truth, and free of guilt. The scripture I quoted above is from John 8:31-32. These are just my opinions though.